I remember
I remember everything.
What seems like a blessing
rather than a curse
is keeping me guessing
remembering all of your words.
Things you’ve forgotten you said, I recite
As I stare at the ceiling, trying not to cry
That’s what I do now, I no longer sleep at night
Since the day of your final goodbye.
So, I relive every moment we shared,
In my thoughts you play the main part
Even though I know you never really cared
Your voice keeps resonating in my heart.
That sound, it makes me miss you
I tend to idealise us, put the pain aside
The time before the conflict, the vast blue
Before you broke me and left my side.
At least nostalgia won’t let me go
And remembrance will forever stay
Even now when time moves slow
They gently guide my way.
Therefore, I prefer to live in the past
The present feels like a lifetime ago
Hard to remember a time before my thoughts amassed;
After all, in a world full of grief, I can’t bear to grow.