The Loss of a Loved One – A Poem

Here I lie on the cold bathroom floor
Hoping I could have seen you once more

You left me but it just doesn’t feel right,
That I can’t help thinking it’s my fault and that’s why I’m crying tonight

Grandpa, was one sweet word for you and that’s true
It now just hurts how bitter it sounds without you

Reading through those messages and that one letter
That still got me wondering, was I a good granddaughter?

Death, a word so raw it got me shaking
Now you died, and left me continuously breaking

I use to think everyone had a happy ending,
Mine packed its suitcase and left like it stopped bothering.

Without you, my universe feels destroyed
And with it, came a feeling of never ending void

Thought I would have been ready, to face such a disaster
Now looking back, I just look like a kid, a vulgar amateur

I drew for us a painting, to say I love you
It reads I miss you, and trust me I really do

Never to say goodbye was all I request,
I guess, at the end, we both broke a promise

Now here you are, hopefully in a peaceful resting
I won’t rest, I will continue mourning