Sometimes it comes to me
In the middle of the night right before I sleep
I turn around and open my eyes all wide
And let me tell you
I can’t see nothing when the darkness is this deep
Momma said to eat all my vegetable to be strong
But the thing is I haven’t made it to the peace
I look like winning but smell like defeat
I am who I am and still my thoughts bleed
What should I do?
Did I do this wrong or that right or was I alright or was I all bad?
I did this and I did that and I made people happy but I made people sad
What does it cost to survive in this world?
What does it cost to thrive in this world?
Even if I do right, I do people wrong
And let me tell you I’m not writing this like a songwriter for a singer who doesn’t feel the song
No, not at all.
I just think that what we lack
Is that self reflect and self respect aren’t put together even though they should
And the more you self reflect the more you lose self respect for you
And I’m not talking about there being one cold hearted truth
I just think that with a little more love to ourselves
We can rip the hate out the shelves
In our heads and our veins
We can wash them out like stains
So don’t go and neglect yourself because you have too much respect for someone else
Because they all say: “Respect is earned”
Then when are you gonna earn yourself’s?