I Feel Alive

Colors fade to dull, to dusk

Darkness envelops my happiness,

My sadness, my every feeling

I try to live, a hollow husk

Emerging from the darkness,

Dawn begins anew, the sunrise bringing

The pinks of happiness and the oranges of longing

I remember, now, why I wake each morning.

Because, now, I feel alive.

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I feel alive on long summer nights, watching fireworks beneath darkened skies

I feel alive on rainy days, the pitter patter on my clear umbrella

I feel alive in a public bathroom where the largest stall has its own sink

I feel alive walking across a sky bridge between two buildings

 

I feel alive when two cars turn opposite directions in perfect synchronization

I feel alive when I smell my freshly sharpened pencil, the scent of cedar

I feel alive when I write new worlds, enveloping myself in my pages

I feel alive when I tap the small smiley face surveys outside an airport bathroom

I feel alive when I listen to music by Lena Raine

I feel alive when I smell the garlic, the onion, the ginger that sizzle in my pan

I feel alive when my stomach drops as the airplane lifts off

I feel alive when I breathe in the steam on fresh white rice

I feel alive when I listen to passionate people talk for hours

I feel alive when I fill in the bubble sheets they used to give for the SATs

 

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Perhaps one day the sun will set anew

But even if the light fades

I shall hold the memories of it dear

With these words to remind myself of this time

When I feel alive