a sweet parfume

A mother,

a daughter, 

a soon-to-be mother, 

a girlfriend…

A woman.

 

No law protects them(No law protects us).

No hope protects them(No hope protects us). 

As much as we wished for at least a small piece of that huge sweet cake we barely got a spoon.

 

And now what? 

All I remember is change. 

All I remember is change. 

Withered flowers, 

rotten fruits and vegetables and flesh. 

Dirty pavements, patchy grass turning yellow and nasty,

old bedsheets.

Frayed knees and burrs and bruises. 

 

All I remember is change and now I smell of perfume. 

A perfume so sweet it raises questions on whether I am trying to substitute for the sweetness of sugar, chocolate and candy that I may not have because of calories.

A perfume so sweet it raises questions on whether I indeed want to identify with a ‘caramel sticky date muss, a hint of cinnamon’.

Do I really want to? Do I really want to 

take that stupid birth control that gives me more side effects than the actual use? 

Irregular menstrual bleeding, headaches, breast tenderness, nausea, acne, mood changes, weight gain(fuck I thought i’ve escaped it.) 

Do I really want to?

To see the next day “NEW BIRTH CONTROL FOR MEN DISCOVERED. NO SIDE EFFECTS”

Fuck you! 

 

Do I really want to?

Be? 

A- 

 

The word remains up in the air. 

Do you hear it too?

Do you hear it too, I am asking?

Lost

Invisible

Silenced 

 

I will change the route of the story. I will tell you, 

Will tell you about the power you have,

The resilience

The strength 

I will tell you

And i will listen in return

Your stories

Of Freedom and liberation

Of being yourself

I am guessing that we cannot escape birth control that quickly, especially if it helps with PMS.

I am guessing that we cannot escape calories. 

What other notion am I going to bring in? 

I will let you ponder and

I will let you look around. 

Come on, do it.

I will let you look around to see that you are not 

A-

Lone 

You are not alone. 

A mother,

a daughter, 

a soon-to-be mother, 

a girlfriend…

A woman.