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Akin to ritual, mundane

These hands of mine 

Wipe murky tears off of my bloodied face. 

I looked 

at them – 

All bloody and disfigured.

 

Immense and unimaginable

Sharp pain

Sent my obscene mind into crazed loops.

My eyelids tear

The fibres of my skin untangle,

I tear all muscle in my body

strangled

By nothing but the sound

Of my own lungs exploding.

As my consciousness makes me

      violently

Gasp for air. As if I could.

As if I were.

But I’m not anymore.